A Poem I’ve Never Let The Public Read
I wrote a poem in college over a relationship that broke my heart and until now, I’ve never let the public read it.
It’s about a person whom I fell in love with, never let them know how I felt, and by not doing so, lost that person to someone else.
I was on the air one night years after we’d dated when I received a phone call from a mutual friend who called to tell me she was engaged. I decided that evening, that before she married, I was going to meet with her to let her know how I felt and how I had kept my feelings and my hurt hidden for years…and that I loved her.
I called her and she agreed to meet. That day we did all the things that we’d done when we were in college. We crammed all of our college weekends into one afternoon. She said to me that day that had she known, things may have turned out completely different.
We parted that afternoon with my last words to her being, “When I close this door, you will be in my heart forever, but for my own sanity, I have to get on with my life”, and we kissed one last time. I have never seen her again.
I had never written a poem when I wrote this and have never written one since. This would have been written late 1981, early 1982.
It has no title…
Once there was a sea
A sea shinning with glimmer and gleam
A sea that was almost like a dream
Then one day the sea became gold
Shinny and polished
Like the life of a spiritual soul
Some say the sea became an array of platinum
Others say it was just an illusion
An illusion to one
Everything possible to man to the other
Then the sea began to drain
Like a bucket with only one hole
A bucket that couldn’t hold even the thickest rain
Soon the sea was empty
Hollow to the Earth, hollow to one
One who now had no reason
Like the Earth without a Sun
Over the years the bottom became rough and jagged
Like skin without elastic
The winds were bad to the sea
They whipped and pounded
Something about the sea had died
The sea was sort of like a lock without a key
No reason to be
Year after year the sea had hope
Hope that one day there would be a drenching rain
But the rain never came
Ol sea remained the same
Then one day there was a huge earthquake
The Earth moved for miles and miles
Destroying the sea’s bottom completely
Now only a small miracle would give the sea rain
Rain that was so desperately needed for survival
And one day the miracle happened
Winds pounded, the Earth moved, seagulls sang as the sea repaired
Nature had taken it’s course
There it was
A hole for miles and miles in every direction
A perfect bottom with perfect sides and…Water?
There had to be water
There was no water
The sea pleaded…Water…please oh God let there be water
Water never came
Some say it was best
Others say no
But all agree, a sea without water is just a hole.