JayCee Made Me (CJ) Jealous And Now I’m Thinking About 2014
A few days ago, JayCee, who hosts the afternoon show on KTDY, posted a comment on Facebook about someone special in his life and it made me jealous, and it got me thinking about 2014.
At first, I couldn't believe I was reading something that had been written by JayCee. The comments were warm, loving, with emotion and passion. One person even commented about how JayCee was becoming a romantic.
It got me to thinking about love, family and quite honestly, what 2014 means for me. 2013 started out horribly. At midnight, literally midnight, I misjudged a situation, said some things I didn't mean and ended up hurting someone very dear to me. I have spent the better part of 2013 trying to repair my mistake. I think everything is all good with that now, and I'm very happy the other person was strong enough to forgive me.
2013 started badly and I vowed to change it. This year turned out amazing in many ways, but not without valleys. And this is the year I turned 50 which I've said numerous times, hit me hard.
So what about the coming year. And the next. And the next. After reading what JayCee wrote on Facebook, I think it's time to readjust.
Once a person is settled into a job, continues to learn new things at that job to excel, has all the friends he/she needs, and has decent health, what else is there? This is the stuff that pops into my head.
Our company tells us to write about our lives, share our thoughts and opinions, because that's what people like to read on the website. I've never had a problem sharing my thoughts and emotions on or off the air. Well, here goes!
In 2014 I hope to redirect my focus on family. Less time at work and more time with family. Not just the guy who writes checks to make things better, but the guy who gives his time. I must also find more time for friends. I want to pray more, haven't been doing that nearly enough. Pray not just when I need spiritual help but when I don't. I hate acting my age, but I probably need to work on that a bit. I've recently been a dull boy. Tired a lot. Staying home a lot. And as much as I enjoy vodka, there hasn't been much of that either. Eat less. I have been totally out of control.
This part is tough for me and I'm sure I will get extremely criticized for what I'm about to say, but I've never held back and don't plan on starting now. Is it wrong for me to want to find love in 2014? I have to be careful with that one, because I feel love everyday. I am the most blessed radio guy in the world. But that's not the kind of love I'm talking about. At this age, is it wrong to want to have someone in your life who is just ate up? Wouldn't it be nice to have someone who can't wait to kiss you, and mean it? To have someone who wants to give you a back massage, even when you don't ask for one? Someone who can be trusted even when you're not around? Smart and funny a must. A better half that can appreciate that your better days are over.
Does this person exist? And will this person be OK with not moving in? I enjoy living alone too much. Can you be committed without being under the same roof 24/7?
I'm sure many people have phone numbers in there smartphones whom they can call on those lonely nights, but after a while, that gets old. Humans need more. Obviously, or why else would people get married?
So how does someone 50, find the person that rocks their world? A bar? Through friends? Internet? Or is that person right under my nose and all I have to do is open my eyes? And do they see me? I haven't a clue.
I envy those who have perfect relationships. Oh wait, there are no perfect relationships. So why do I crave one like JayCee's? My life is really, really good, why would I want to screw it up? I don't need love to have a good time, if you know what I mean. So why do we humans need and crave love? Why do we envy love when we see it, but when we find it, many times get bored, tired and end up divorced?
It's all crazy, right? Anyway, 2014, let's get it!